Lazy or Afraid

Sometimes I can't decide if we have become a lazy society or a fearful society. I think a case could probably be made for both. We are often so afraid to do something because we might fail or disappoint someone. But beyond that I think we sometimes are afraid of what might be involved and we just don't want to commit to something that will consume too much of "our" time. 

I see this in myself. There are some things that I would love to do and as I look at the upcoming changes and relocation in my life I have to ask myself constantly am I scared or just too lazy.  Planning and looking ahead is a necessary evil but it produces procrastination and fear. 

I have to remind myself every day that tomorrow does not come with a guarantee. I have to stay in today but plan as if tomorrow is coming. That means I have to be brave and do the things that I don't really want to. 

I'll be honest. I don't like to be the center of attention - I don't like to feel like I'm putting people out and I would much rather make a decision knowing it has a desired outcome or makes someone else happy.  That makes it a little hard to plan a wedding. Personally a fairy godmother who would pick the dress and plan the decor and make all the decisions would make me happy. Why? Because then I would feel like I was putting anyone out or causing anyone to be unhappy with the decisions. Life doesn't work that way and I have to remind myself that it really is okay to occasionally let it be about me. 

So for the moment I'm going to try to move forward and make decisions that I like and try not to worry that someone might be disappointed or that the outcome isn't in my control. 

My God knows what tomorrow will hold. I don't have to. I just have to seek Him and let Him guide my choices.