2016 Equaled Change

“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah‬ ‭43:19‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Two years ago this verse kicked off a year of memorizing two verses a month. Last year I dubbed the year of change. I expected change, I anticipated change and I feared change. It was all of that and more.

2016 was all that I anticipated and in many ways so far beyond anything I could have imagine. I knew that it would be a different year. One kid graduating college and one from high school. Leaving an empty nest. I was getting married and moving and taking a new job. All the biggest psychological stressors you could imagine. Add to that some financial challenges, parental health issues and just your regular life and it was definitely a year of change.

I was so overwhelmed at one point I really thought I was losing my mind (some would say this already happened).  I felt so disconnected from all that was me. It was an amazing trip around the sun. I found out more about myself and how I process life than I thought was possible. It thought I knew myself pretty well and had left behind some major insecurities only to have them come roaring back and nearly undo me.

Two things kept me from falling off the edge. The one strongest connection I've ever known and my amazing husband. My God has always been my grounding place. I've learned to run to Him and cry to Him and cling to Him over the years and He is the one connection that goes wherever I do. He is always there. Even when I wander off He is just waiting.

The second one is my husband. In the past five months he has held me when I cried and helped me process (it pays to be married to a therapist) and made me laugh more than I think I ever have in my life. He lets me be me and encourages me to be all that I can.

This year ended with some special family time and I am looking forward to 2017 and what God has planned. This year the word is trust - the FIRM belief in the reliability, truth or strength of someone or something. You see I have trust issues. So this year I'm going to memorize verses on trust and seek to rely even more fully on my God and not try to figure out life.

So Happy New Year everyone. Welcome to 2017.